Monday, July 9, 2012

Something I have been neglecting....

I have been neglecting to read the Bible and it is one of the hardest things to do. Open the bible. I feel like I have 1001 reasons why I do not,but there should be no excuse for that.
I always tell myself to pick a time each day to read a verse,chapter, whatever the time length is with you and God,but instead I find myself blogging, or checking instagram or just fiddling around when that whole time I could be opening up the bible and reading a verse.
I have tried reading plans,but who am I kidding, I am way behind.
Having 3 kids is amazing, hard, overwhelming and blessed, and reading the bible is one of those things that gets forgotten. There are days that I feel like I am failing as a mom, and my kids will not look up to me one day. Why do I think yelling is acceptable and not having patience.  Why do I think I can clean the house from top to bottom and let my kids play the ipad or watch tv so that I can havesome ALONE time by cleaning upstairs or ignoring the words mom and then pretending I did not hear them is ok. It.s not. That is not want God wants me to do or act.
There are somedays that I just want to crawl into bed and just forget everything for just a moment and hide,but what is that going to fix? Instead I need to rely on God to get me through those moments.
Somedays I feel like I am a pair of hands to help fix things, can you open this?, or just a clock and not a human and being asked, what time are we doing this? when is daddy going to be home(what, I am not good enough for you?) or a tv guide being asked "what channel is that show on?"
I do not want to be the perfect mom, I want my kids to see it is ok to have some imperfections, do get things wrong sometimes. That is how you learn.
Sometimes I feel invisiable. Does my husband not see me cleaning the kitchen day in and day out, or giving the kids a bath or dealing with tantrums or do my children not see me going to the bathroom or taking a shower?
Then it hits me, pow, right in the face, its a voice, God's voice and he is telling me " I see you Nicole, I see all the things you do and continue to do and nothing you do is to small for me to see. Wow, that is exactly what I needed to hear and maybe I am not invisible, to God at least.
As a mom of 3, I feel invisible at times, and unappreciated,BUT when I look at my children, Gifts from God,nothing matters anymore,but enjoying the time I have with my kids. It is soooo worth it.
 So, God see's everybody and no one is invisible. I am going to challenge myself and leave my bible in view and read a verse,maybe a chapter a day and then process that vs and how it relates to what I am doing today.
I challenge you to do this if you are struggling to open the bible.
God see's you and that is all that matters.
This was on my heart today and after having a rough morning, I thought I needed to share this. I think we all feel neglected at times,but you are not!

1 Peter 3:4 tells us: "but let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the imperishable quality of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is precious in the sight of God."

In Matthew i6 3:4 Jesus says, "But when you give to the needy,do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing,so that your giving may be in secret. Then your father, whoe sees what is done in secret,will reward you."

 Remember as mothers we are building Catherdals or foundations and cannot be seen if we are doing it right. We have added beauty to the world and someday the world will admire or marvel everything by the sacrifices of the invisible woman.

Have a super day
xo Nicole


julie said...

what a great post. i often feel the same way, and always need these reminders. it is so hard sometimes to read my bible, but i know it's what i need to make it. thanks!!

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