Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Struggles

This is heavy on my heart right now and I decided I need to blog about it. I am struggling with feeling like I am a good mother, wife, child of God.
I find myself yelling at the kids for the littlest things. They do not deserve that. I always told myself I would be a mom who is calm and always stays calm when disciplining or when my kids are just having a crazy day or an off day, instead I feel like I lose control of the situation and I just yell or huff and puff about it.
Is that how God wants me to react?
I always try to remember that my children are learning every second of their life and I need to be the best roll model I can be for them and teach them.
My daughter is always observing what I am wearing so she can dress similar like me and I find her reacting to a situation like I do and it is not the best reaction. Not godly reaction and to know that she is learning from example does not settle well with me. Is that the kind of mom I want to be?
I always refer back to the virtious woman. She did so much for others and so much for God. That is the woman I want to be.
Proverbs 31:10-31
An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life. She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. She is like the ships of the merchant; she brings her food from afar. ...
Is this who I am? No. I feel at times I do not do enough for my husband or my children OR for God.
I feel like there are so many excuses I can make for not having enough quiet time with God and I do not make time for him,BUT he is always there for us. He gave us the greatest gift and I struggle with not thanking him enough for that.
I find myself on FB or Instagram at times I should be reading and praying.
I want to do everything that glorifies god right now and I feel I am far from it.
Does anybody else feel like this?
I am scared of what satan is trying to do to me or how he is trying to pull be into his house of sin.
I know doors of opportunity will come a knocking for me to be the best mom, wife, daughter of God. I will wait patiently for that door to open. In the meantime I will try to beat satan to the ground .




Nicole
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Nicole

1 comment:

Liz said...

Keep your head up... Small steps...