Monday, January 20, 2014

Scared





I have fears of clowns and mice and death and getting lost and never finding my way back. Even though these are fears and real ones and they scare me,but the one thing I am scared of is not being the mother I want to be. We all have our moments where we feel like we are doing everything wrong, but in the long run we are doing everything right. Make sense?

Sometimes I feel like I am the best mom and then most days, I am failing them. When I mean failing, I mean not making them  read enough or doing something for them just to get it done. I feel like I am sometimes so invested in Social Media that I forget that I have 3 needy children who want a mommy to play a board game with them,or hide and seek or just cuddle with them. Why is it so hard to accomplish these things? Am I that tired by the end of the day that I have no energy for them,but instead I exhault it all in my fingers shopping online or facebook or Instagram?

I need to focus on my children and I want them to be the mom I was and am and I want them growing up knowing they had a mom that was awsome and fun and I want my girls to be that kind of mom, but am I failing them?

I think it is ok to admit that sometimes I failed that day or I really messed up and that the next day is a whole new with new adventures and that I feel like I am teaching them not to fail and its ok to make mistakes. We are human and we do make mistakes, but I think I need to slow down and enjoy those moments and give myself more grace.



I want to lead by example and know that it is ok.



Anybody else Scared of failing?












1 comment:

Savanna said...

Always! I think it's just a part of being a Mom. If you didn't feel this way at times then there'd be something to worry about! Tomorrow is always a new day :)